It will be ten years since my husband Chris's death on May 11. Because this site might end, I am sharing more memories of him. This will be a catharsis for me. Chris left us behind, yet I am not alone. For I still feel the warmth of his deep and abiding love. Chris lifted my spirits and showed me how to embrace life. He was truly my soulmate and the love of my life. I adored him. Chris had many virtues which I greatly admired: his passion for music, particularly jazz; conducting his band and orchestra, and teaching; his unflagging wit and humor; his unwavering commitment to family, friends and others who counted on him; his mettle dealing with hardship and pain; his genuine interest in people; his belief that people were wonderful, and they should not be judged; and above all his steadfast devotion to his daughter Samantha. Chris possessed the high intellect of a man and the insatiable curiosity and wonder of a boy. He really was an exceptional man. Chris was the love of my life and I adore him still.